ku menangis lagi !!!!

waktu : around 3pm yesterday (18th  July)

aku dapat satu misscall from unknown number which is no need to mention here. then aku dapat msg jiwang2.. aku duk pikir siapa la yg mengong sgt duk antaq msg lagu tuh at aku.... choooii... last2 nk tau msg ape ku dapat???? ni bunyi die -->
                          "awak, saya ni kawan  $%^&*#$% (betina uh) .. saya juz nk tawu, awk dgn apek mcm mne?? awk masih sayangkan die ke?? "
 deeeee... perlu ke nak msg mcm uhh.. saat uh aku da rasa bengang gile.. bkan ape,, aku rasa semak r,, asal sibuk sgt pasal aku?? aku da rasa better da... da rasa leyh hidup tanpa die,,, asal die nk dtg tnye aku mcm tuh??? ntah sape2 ntahh.. then aku call xnk angkt! pengecut xde pelerr... cibai anak haram.. pastuh,, die msg ckp hp rosak! ape kebodohhhhhhhh alasan kau shiall... aku ckp r kt die, aku ni bkn budak belasan tahun nk msg2 bnda mcm uh,, aku nk dgr suara die sndri,.,,, xberani die dowhh,, siap off onn japp off, jap on, gile punye org.... butuh,, kepala hanjing.  pastu die buat silap.. cara die msg , aku tawuuuuu sape. aku tawu itu apek! die saja r tuhh konon nk tawu syg die ke x.. aku lebih rela die dgn gentlenya tnya aku baik2,.,, xpayah nk slindung2 siap sebut nama betina uh lagi.... siall... aku jdi bengang dowhh... aku xtaw nape air mata aku ni cukup murah untuk die... padahal nekad aku da nk lupakan die.,.. bkn aku xcinta, bkan aku xsayang.. tp aku xtawu dimana kedudukan aku kt hati die.... dan aku langsung xpercayakan die setelah ape yg terjadi... aku dah cuba.. tp gagal! aku berdoa harap suatu hari nanti ada jalan penyelesaian antara kami ... amin..
~~ z u l f y ~~

... s l i m w o r l d !!!!

ahaaa.. cam siak je an tajuk nya~ s l i m  w o r l d~ 

yee... saya start nek badan since i was 14 years old.. before dat i ok la,,, not so thin not so chubby means so so la,, :) then my body bcme chubby-chubby-chubby-cubby til now~~

gemox an  ...

people around me owez ask me for do some diet and jog, but i dunno why its hard to me la,, y ha?? mybe i still feel comfortable with my body.. but some times! and some time i felt i wanna lost my weight in immediately coz i wanna wear kebaya moden !! arrghh...  uhh... but sometime i think wat for la nak seksa body kita.. people shud accept us what the real us rite? tp bile pk2 balik, sape xnak s a n t e k kan.... every women in the whole world want to be a   B e A u T i F u L   P r  E e T T y  G o R g  E o U S  women so same to me ... tp aku malas sgt nak susahkan diri aku untuk kurus kan badan.. hehehe,,,perhaps i need someone la beside me to guide me in seriously mcm the biggest loser ke ann.. hahahha ... berangan dowwhhh...  

oopss kenapa gmbr  l i s a s u r i h a n i  ada disini?? actually.. i adore her.. very much.! she's pretty, soft spoken, even pelat arrgg, she's polite not sexy at all... the most one is, she's simple but nice...

cantik bukan?? kt bawah ni i ade something untuk korang yang merasakan diri korang xconfident kerana masalah  k e g e m u k a n.. check diz out ---->>

1 . jangan malu untuk ke hadapan. biar la org nk kata apa kerana mulut org kite bukan boleh nk tutup pun kan,,,,

2 . walaupun kita gemuk, tlong la jgn sesekali rasa kita buruk.. apa la salahnya kita bercantik2 dgn mngenakan make-up sedikit dimuka, xpayah nk berketerlaluan pon,, tp klu those u already have natural beauty so xpayah la sgt.. cume letak lips bam sudaahh,,,,

3. pakaian~ bab ni paling leceh an,,, nk pilih pakaian.. klu boleh pakai la warna gelap. dan jgn la skinny,, nnti nmpk pulak babat2 kite an,,, body shape ok lagi,, 

4. jgn cepat rasa rendah diri. bukti kan pada people around us yg kite pon boleh buat. at least mencoba !

i think dats ol for today.. we talk  later coz i ade kelas jap agi... heheheh..

daaa~~

emmuuuaaahh  for me.. leleyh beb.!!

salam... 

hammboiiihh,, lama nya x update blog nie... huk hukhukk terbatuk saya... manyak habuk woo~ .. ngeee.... well.. theres too many things happend to me currently..yeah,, about family, frenz, love , student life n bla bla bla.. huhuhu... so,, which one shud i start first??  hurrmm.. i think i gonna start with the lowest pressure first,, hehehe,, dat is about fmly.. hurmm... my fmly was like 2years a go when my father does not work, so everything on my moms~ but Thank God coz for given him side income in other way, so i still can ask for money from him..lalalala. then my fmly still 4~~ hahahaha....

now.. bout my fren.. yeahh.. i gt new frens lately.. quit lot.. coz i went to prctikal so i met them there~ so a lot of fun i had with them all. so many sweetest memories with de staf n olso trainee thre..i will remember ol them until end.. ok.. continue to my student life~ yahh lot of fun!!! enjoy!! happiness!! but nothing to discribe~ noe wht? coz i love it! .. now about my love... in my heart now have a loooot of l.o.v.e.  but love means sayang... i sayang sume org around me.. but untuk c.i.n.t.a. i have nothing here.. zero.. coz.. i felt nothing in ma heart.. yeah in deeply heart i wanna hve someone special inside.. but who?? even i have someone  that "mybe" can be my side, but still not sure yet coz he was taken by someone.. so now i realized that now is not time to me to get lovin2 like dat.. haha.. so i need to go through running with my stdy first.. mybe once i gt a job outside, i'll get someone. then no need to couple2 like others, juz get married ASAP.. hahahaha... no biggie! 

~new me~

but stil mox2... huhuhuhuhuhu....

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